When you first meet someone, everything seems perfect. Its new and exciting and all about making the other person want you. Then, once you have each other, thats when the real challenge begins. True colors start to show, and its how you cope with each other that makes it work. But don’t forget, people change. Especially during this young age when we are exploring and discovering and life chapters are short. From high school to college to career, people learn and people grow. Perspectives are realized, opinions are formed, strengths are strengthened, and hopefully, weaknesses fade. If you have love, cherish it. It’s Gods greatest gift and should never be taken for granted. But don’t be afraid to let it go when it is no longer there, because take a close look, it is already gone. Its easy to fall in love, and the hardest to fall out of. In all honestly, just because it was once great does not mean it will always be that way. You know who they once were, and you may see who they can be. But if you are not happy, you have got to let go. Don’t hold on to the past of what once was, because it has past and it will never be again. Don’t hold on for the future of what can be, because that may never be and the future is not ours to foresee. Life is a gift, your time here is not guaranteed. This is not to say one should not plan for what may come, just a call to those who are not happy to take a leap of fate and BE the change YOU need. Love is all great, but it does have so much fear, because when you love someone you are giving them all of you. They are your happiness, and they can take back that happiness without a moments notice. But its LOVE, you must trust that they will hold your heart in all safety with the care it needs. Be happy. But don’t be afraid to get hurt. Because it all happens for a reason, it all happens for the best. It makes you stronger and the hurt is just an awakening call for you to realize that that person is not meant to be in your life. So Love with all you can for those who are deserving, not just for a significant other but also for family and friends. Do all you can to make it work, but when you keep having that alert call of hurt that it is not working out, don’t ignore it. Because you need to move on, and once you do, you are that much closer to true happiness :)

So I now find myself free, I find myself “me” again. I had the most amazing summer, and with the Fall semester started, my life continues to be even more amazing. Good bye to the summer nights of careless randomness, the parties, the midnight swims, spur of the moment visits to the beach, and Hello to the enlightening sociology, refreshing dance, challenging accounting, and biology which has come with a surprise bonus ;) I will miss you C3 but the library and Marks after hours are my new home. Yes, I am a 5th year. College has been the most real experience I have ever had but it’s time for me to get going on the reason I attended, to obtain that bachelors degree. Each night I fall asleep excited for the next day, there’s just something about this semester that makes me impatient to attend each class. Not to mention a very special someone who encourages me and makes me feel it is possible to stay on top of class :) The burdens of being independent still lurk in the background but I no longer keep it in the front of my mind, just as long as I stay financially responsible everything will be okay. I’ve been receiving more family time and my priority list is finally getting back in check. Everything is making me feel so blessed <3

I feel it coming back. Creeping into my life like some unwanted sickness. Confusingly expected, I thought it was over with. I find myself quiet. Staring off and not really thinking anything at all. I go through the motions of laughter, but I can’t feel it. Too many out of body experiences are no longer welcome. Filling Emptiness with the busy work of forceful forgetfulness does not fill. It covers. My realization of regretful resentment has not set me free.

Sometimes I just want. to put my feelings out there. Emotions expressed to serve some purpose. Secrets unleashed to serve some justice. Sometimes I just wonder. why must we live with these boundaries. Why must we accept these constraints. Sometimes I struggle. with the ability to face reality. With the ability to create fantasy. Dream while you are able to. Dream even more while you can’t. Love when you feel it. Love even more when you can’t. Don’t punish others for being themselves. Praise yourself for being you.

Hola amigos! me llamo Krystal Lynn David y yo soy el DOPEST EVER!! AMIGOS FOREVA EVA? FOREVA EVA?!! BUHAHAH! >=)

I feel like I am caught up, lost a part of myself. I’ve been living life so much I forgot what life really is. But then again, I don’t know if I’ve ever really lived it to really know what its like. If I know anything, it’s that I’ve never felt so alive. I’ve experienced so much emotion, feelings I never knew existed, experienced and learned so much I never would had imagined it possible to fit within the span of one year. I’ve lost my mind and gained a new conscious, made mistakes worth making. I’ve felt more lost than I’ve ever felt before, but I’ve also learned so much more about myself. I’ve been blessed with the love and friendship of so many along the way, but its given the backfire of me losing my independence. All of this is driving me insane, yet I wouldn’t take back any of if I had the chance. What I’ve lost is nothing compared to what I’ve gained and it just makes it that much more worth while. And to think that this is just the beginning…

Where am I? and where have I been? Am I back yet? Or is this another false alarm? A quarter of 365 gone and I cant remember it through my own eyes. Who is this? Who are you? Change is here while acceptance struggles, is this how its suppose to be? And if it is, then what was that I thought I knew? This forbidden righteousness is consuming all that’s known. The battle between love and logic is set far beyond reasoning, my indecisiveness remains unsolved. Remain slowly beaten for a mere moment of ecstasy, or to venture onward without everything you’ve taken for a dull peace of empty mind. Either way, I don’t know what I do want, but I do know what I don’t, and its this.